On Death Row

How I wish I could tell her 

that I was scared to death, 

knowing that every "prevision" about me came true. I wish I could ignore myself,

throw away everything I love just to protect her 

from any possible damage. 

I wish I could choose her over everything 

and be happy with that decision. I wish it won't hurt her 

as much as it torments me 

every time I imagine that I will be evil and cursed. I wish she knows 

that I tried my best not to fall and pulled her down.

I wish I don't feel like I'm on death row. I wish she knows.